I'm Trying....

i have decided that I am going through a quarter life crisis. I don't know whats been going on with me since school started. I think that I have developed a very defeatist attitude about life. I have spent far to much time having my own personal pity party. The problem is I'm still not sure that I'm not entitled to feel this way. I think Rascal Flatts, as we all know, do an amazing job to describe all of lifes experiences

You feel like a candle in a hurricane

Just like a picture with a broken frame

Alone and helpless

Like you've lost your fight

But you'll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove,You taste what you're made of

You might bend, till you break, Cause its all you can take

On your knees you look up, Decide you've had enough

You get mad you get strong

Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you Stand

Thats what I'm trying to do and I feel like I'm getting to that point but there is still so much that is up in the air for me. I just don't know how to find a place in life that feels right. Sometimes I feel like carting me off to the looney bin seems like a perfectly resonable alternitive to life, or rehab...but only a nice one...like with a spa...

I've dealt with my ghosts and faced all my demons

Finally content with a past I regret

I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness

For once I’m at peace with myself

I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long

I'm moving on

I hope that I can do that soon. I'm tired if feeling so..so...I don't know...blah seems like a good word for how I feel..blah mixed in with sadness and occasional bursts of anger and frustration. I will sum up this depressing post with the comment that I cannot wait to see Hanson next weekend! Nope not ashamed of that at least...and this continuation of my life through lyrics

Goodbye four leaf clovers.

Hello gone awry

Don't cry the fight ain't over

Unless you let it pass you by

I'm looking for a song to sing,

Looking for a friend to borrow.

I'm looking for my radio.

So I might find a heart to follow