so here is what I am thinking.....

Why are people always telling me I am too sensitive?
Why are people always telling me I can't take a joke, or that I take things too seriously?
That I over-analyze and that I need to just let things go?
ok...I give them a point...I do over analyze...I think about things too much...I stress when I don't get a text message back...ok...they get ONE point....other than that here is what I am thinking....
I think these people (no one in particular) need to FUCK OFF!
Seriously?I have been through a lot of shit...some of it is random drama everyone deals with...ok my parents got divorced...ok my dad is an alcoholic asshole...most people have a thing or two like that lurking in their background...but thats not all...quite honestly in perspective...I feel like I have done alright....the other end of the spectrum is that I was some crazy bitch they show on intervention...to be dramatic I could be dead....obviously that is over dramatic but it could have happened.
So that fact that I am still so open? The fact that I still believe that ANYTHING ANYONE tells me is the truth...the fact that I have faith or trust anyone at all is a MIRACLE...
Sometimes I think I should have learned by now...most people are full of shit...I shouldn't think when someone says they want to spend the rest of their life with me they would give a shit enough to text message me at all in the day (I am not crazy...I mean when I write something that garners a response they respond)....but I do....I sit by the phone...I stress...I love...I care...
OK...sometimes I take things too seriously....I think that maybe I have expectations from people that are too high...
but the fact that I have any expectations....at all...is a fucking miracle...

The Dreaded G********** Word.

I am getting more and more nervous as we are (some of us..sorry JL) getting closer to Graduation. I can't decide if I am looking forward to it or dreading it...I think I am settling on neither. I saw JL's post about enjoying the simple things and getting excited for warmer weather and I thought of this song. I think this song is how I am going to think of my last semester at Champlain, with amazing friends, and amazing times...even if my time at Champlain is almost over (ha-like I spend any time on campus anyways) my friends and good times are not going to cease to exhist when school is over!
I’m wastin’ half of my life just lookin’ back
Thinkin’ all of my good times were in the past
Ain’t no joy to be found livin’ life like that
I couldn’t feel the sunshine on my face
Everywhere that I’d go I’d feel out of place
Finally figured out I’d never win that race
Now I’m amazed to find
These are the good ole days that we’ve been livin’
No more lookin’ back all is forgivin’
Ain’t gonna live my life through no picture frame
These are the good ole days
Seems like people get lost talkin’ ’bout some day
Something better will come and take them away
Never realize ’til it’s too late
It’s the simple things that make life worthwhile
Like a warm summer day or a laughin’ child
Or how it makes me feel just to see you smile
Baby you know it’s true
These are the good ole days