so here is what I am thinking.....

Why are people always telling me I am too sensitive?
Why are people always telling me I can't take a joke, or that I take things too seriously?
That I over-analyze and that I need to just let things go?
ok...I give them a point...I do over analyze...I think about things too much...I stress when I don't get a text message back...ok...they get ONE point....other than that here is what I am thinking....
I think these people (no one in particular) need to FUCK OFF!
Seriously?I have been through a lot of shit...some of it is random drama everyone deals with...ok my parents got divorced...ok my dad is an alcoholic asshole...most people have a thing or two like that lurking in their background...but thats not all...quite honestly in perspective...I feel like I have done alright....the other end of the spectrum is that I was some crazy bitch they show on intervention...to be dramatic I could be dead....obviously that is over dramatic but it could have happened.
So that fact that I am still so open? The fact that I still believe that ANYTHING ANYONE tells me is the truth...the fact that I have faith or trust anyone at all is a MIRACLE...
Sometimes I think I should have learned by now...most people are full of shit...I shouldn't think when someone says they want to spend the rest of their life with me they would give a shit enough to text message me at all in the day (I am not crazy...I mean when I write something that garners a response they respond)....but I do....I sit by the phone...I stress...I love...I care...
OK...sometimes I take things too seriously....I think that maybe I have expectations from people that are too high...
but the fact that I have any expectations....at all...is a fucking miracle...